I would like to first start out by sending you all a HUGE hug for the overwhelming amount of love and support you all have shown me this past week. It blows my mind to think that someone would take time out of their busy day to make mine a little better. I have read all of your sweet emails, tweets and comments and cannot thank you enough for the positivity and encouragement that you have brought to my week!
We jumped into this week’s episode by introducing my incredibly gifted life coach, Lori Dixon. I have never been a stranger to sharing my thoughts on therapy or self help. I believe that communication is one of, if not the most, important aspects in a relationship! I was very vocal about the therapy that Travis and I attended during the filming of season one and I wrote a blog post titled “My Journey To Finding Me” on my website about my experience at Hoffman Institute, so I felt it was only fitting that I share some of the soul searching and coaching that I do with Lori. If there is something that I did wrong, I want to address that and fix it. I have never claimed to be a perfect person or friend, but I am trying to be the best me that I can be!
I have been pressing Travis to start house hunting with me for a while now! We frequently buy and sell investment properties, but I wanted to make this one my challenge! Travis is great at seeing the potential profit in a property, but am all about the functionality for our family…and how many pairs of shoes I can fit in the closet! Don’t get me wrong, the house is insanely cool… if you’re a billionaire bachelors looking for a giant indoor display case to keep your exotic sea life! I am seeing this house through my “mom eyes” and nothing about it seemed practical! I want my boys to be able to live in their home and have a place to throw their toys, not worry about some crazy expensive wallpaper getting messed up.
I am not going to let Travis pressure me into living in a home that is not suitable for our family! This is going to be a group decision, and if we cant come to an agreement, we are going to call this one another investment property. I am standing my ground on this- I am mama bear, hear me roar!
I applaud Cary for meeting with Brandi at lunch to clear up this text message situation, and I think she explained the issue very well in her confessional this episode. I spoke to Cary, deducted a conclusion from that conversation, and sent a message to Brandi! Do I regret sending the text to Brandi? No! Even though we were not talking at the time, I still consider her my best friend and I have her best interest at heart! I do not want to see her get hurt, so when I watch her get closer to someone that I very clearly do not trust, I get concerned. What I do regret doing is not going into further detail in that message. When Cary approached me at the fashion show, I was very honest in saying that I did text Brandi, but again, I did not do it with ill intentions. Cary has been an incredible friend to me and I did not by any means want to get her tangled in our mess, and for that I am sorry!
I was excited/a nervous wreck to go to the dog park for the Howl-o-ween dog contest! After Mark’s party, I was unsure as to how this interaction would go, but I remained hopeful. Brandi and I had been approached months prior about judging this contest, so of course I was not going to back out! Cruz is my little animal lover, so he had the best time picking out Biscuits outfit for the day and was very proud to tote around his fluffy little R2D2.
When the hot dog confronted me at the table I was very much thrown off, because usually wieners are pretty good to me! Am I the only one to notice that hot dogs have been an issue for us both seasons, thinking back to Heidi Dillon’s party last year with the corn dog situation…just saying! But back to the situation at hand! This confrontation really proved my point in the text message that the hot dog is back to her old way and hasn’t changed! When she should have been focused on helping her friend who she saw hurting mend the issue, she chose to instead make the issue about her and come at me in a very aggressive and confrontational way. I apologized for hurting her feelings with that text. Oh course an apology is going to easily roll off my tongue when it is genuine and true. I would never hold back an apology over pride if someone tells me I’ve hurt or wronged them. This is the very first time that I am hearing from either the hot dog or Brandi as to why they are upset with me, so yes, I am ready to clear the air while we are all together in person. Even though I’m frustrated with the hot dog in that moment, I would never stoop so low as to call them a bitch, especially in front of our children…and dogs! Leeanne needs to take her buns and exit the situation!
I left that event with some hope in my heart! I am thankful that Brandi agreed to talk with me and I pray that when we meet next it will just be her and I so we can finally find some resolution!
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